Love

Poems by Lourdes I. Cancel

Window to my Soul

Warm thoughts affect my senses
when the green window opens up

His eyes are my weakness

and his soul blends with my soul.

His spirit shines as an armor

and illuminates the dark world

It gives hope and enlightenment

and makes me feel reborn.

The blue stone represents him

and gives a shape to his thoughts

It's his way of expression

and a symbol of his words.

Mother Nature is what nourishes

his kind heart and well being

is what alters his emotions

and separates the physical

from the spiritual being.

^{© 2003 Lourdes I. Cancel}

Brokenhearted

Broken soul within me

sharp arrows cross my heart

a cry of sadness and desperation

a rumbling sea inside my chest.

The world revolves around me

but I cannot be part of it

it spins during my agony
of a broken heart and shattered dreams.

My life has suddenly crumbled

and all the happiness has gone away

I cannot picture my life without him

Oh my heart, I’ll die in pain!

© 2007 Lourdes I. Cancel

I Wanted To Be

I wanted to be
the first one to hug you
when you made it in the music world.

I wanted to be
the one to support you
when you were down and
everything seemed hopeless in your heart.

I wanted to be
the one that took care of you
when you were sick and vulnerable.

I wanted to be
the one that woke up with you
and kissed you good morning.

I wanted to be
the one to hold you
when you went to bed every night.

I wanted to be
the mother of your children
and be everything for them.

I wanted to be
the one to marry you
and swear true love forever.

I wanted to be
I wanted to be the one.

© 2008 Lourdes I. Cancel

A Cry Within

He says that is fate

that we are not meant to be

But he doesn’t realize

all the love that’s in me.

I’m hurting inside

because of his words

But he doesn’t feel it

or enter my world.

He places some obstacles

between him and me

and often reminds me

that they still exist.

I’m hurting inside

but he cannot see

My love is for real

and I want him to feel.

I don’t want a jewel
I don't want a promise

I just want to love him
and show him the morning

He says I'm submissive
because I show him my love
and offer the pleasure
to love and be loved.

I am hurting tonight
I’ll be hurting tomorrow

but until he understands

I’ll be covered in sorrow.

© 2003 Lourdes I. Cancel

Ambiguity

I tried so hard to become
that person you wanted me to be.
I tried so hard to give you
everything you needed from me.
But I knew all along
this was not meant to be.

I still remember...
the many songs you wrote
with the same underlying message.
I still remember...
the many times you told me
that nothing was enough
because the vibe was not present.

No matter how much I tried,
No matter how much I gave,
my heart was always hurting.

I gave you love...
you gave me confusion
I gave you my heart...
you gave me your loneliness.
I gave you my soul...
you gave me your coldness.
I gave you everything
you gave me disappointment.

How was I supposed to live?

If you were there I was hurting.

If you were not, I was aching.

©2008 Lourdes I. Cancel

Something Missing

What do you want me to do?
If my heart still beats for you
Short days, long nights
Going in a blaze of light

Don't you let me wonder
What could have been
I hear my heart pounder
Telling me how it feels

Lonely days, lonely nights
Without you by my side
My mind wanders,
My heart ponders
Yearning for you,
back in my life

A Jewel from the Sky

A jewel from the sky
brought to earth in a simple breath
made its way in a cold fall night
and nourished from my breast.

The pink shade of her skin
was soothing to the eyes
and the tenderness of it
brought sensations and a smile.

She was bright and mystical
with the eyes of an angel
she brought meaning to my life
and gave me wings for my flight.

I Am Tired

I am tired!

I am tired of your confusion
and unreciprocated love.

I am tired!

I am tired of your affectionate smile,
of your good deeds,
of your kindness,
and of being told things
that do not go anywhere.

I am tired!

I am tired of fooling myself
into something that may never be,
and of devoting myself to you
and not getting anything back.

I am tired!
of hearing about other women
and how much they make you sweat.

I am tired!
of listening that there is something
better out there for you
and of me not being what you want.

I am tired!
of being a mismatch
and not satisfying your soul.

I am tired!
of being there for you
and you not acknowledging my support.

I am tired!
of your attitude
when things are not going right
and of me accepting
your disrespectful disdain.

I am tired!
of you saying I am sorry
when your loudness hurt my ears
and my heart.

I am tired!
of the emptiness I feel after we are together
and you disappear in a glance.

I am tired!
Of this situation
that doesn’t offer me anything.

Limelight

I still remember that day we met
I was so hesitant and confused back then,
To give my heart to an unknown soul
To somebody that didn't know
What he wanted in this land of hopes
Full of dreams but nothing more

So much potential was always there
But being wasted and going nowhere
I became an obstacle in his dreams
A standing stone in a busy street

Now that we are gone he gets to taste
the limelight, the cameras, the girls on My Space
seduced by a world of meaningless sex
party lights, poker nights in his rolodex

He got the life he once dreamed of
No Loui, no Alannah, no hassles in his world
An egotistical soul that needs some strokes
To feel complete and have his flow.